There were times through the day, though, that she would actually settle down and rest. Not many, mind you, but they were there. In the middle of the afternoon I actually got her to lay down beside me on her pillow pet and she fell asleep watching Sesame Street. This gave me an hour and a half or so to get emails caught up, work on a little bit of photo editing from the weekend, and some other work I needed to catch up on. There were a few times I would catch myself just watching her sleep, and I was reminded of what is really important in this world. There are times I feel stressed because of the quiet times as my photography business is just getting started. But in reality, those are the treasure times... the days I get to spend with her making a real difference in her life and hopefully in the person she will grow up to be. So much about our lives does have that part that requires sacrifice. Motherhood certainly has a lot of self-sacrifice necessary. But there is also sacrifice involved in any relationship as well as accomplishment we set out to make.
Today is a work day for me... I have 2 photo shoots, pretty much back to back but on very different sides of Charlotte. It's exciting and rewarding to do something I love so much. As I go into this day, I wonder about that babygirl today... is her day going to be better because I hugged and kissed on her so much yesterday? Or because I put down what I feel is important to get done through the day to spend the time needed with her? Because selfishly, I feel like my day will be better today because she wanted my hugs and kisses. As exhausted as I was at the end of the day yesterday, I knew in my heart I had made a difference in her life. And that is the most rewarding feeling of all.
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